Cathy and I went on a nice 30-minute walk this morning before she had to dash off to a meeting in downtown Phoenix. I felt pretty strong on the walk … it was such a great pleasure to enjoy the cool morning with Cathy, and to have that time to talk. I am afraid my physical struggles are taking their toll on both of us, but especially on Cathy, who works so hard to balance her busy work life with her care giving. She wants to be there for me without so many other distractions. She is working so hard to stay on top of her work life, but of course that is no easy task. It would help if I were handling this chemo better (assuming my problems are related to the chemo …). Maybe next week …
As I alluded to above, this has been a tough week. I inexplicably got sick again yesterday about noon. I was scheduled to go to Piper for more fluids in the afternoon, which was a good thing, as I really needed them. Instead of me driving, Cathy took time away from work and took me to Piper. I slept through most of the infusion, which included some anti-nausea medication. I felt better last night and was able to eat and drink a fair bit of fluids … and keep them all down! I am hopeful that the nausea stays away now and that I am able to feel strong going into chemo on Monday. If I don’t handle the chemo any better, they may need to fine-tune the dose a bit more, getting it just right for my body. I don’t know if that is an option for this Monday … perhaps they’ll want to give me one more treatment at this particular dosage before making any additional adjustments. We’ll soon find out.
Cathy and I both remember that I struggled at the beginning of the first regimen of chemo. Some of it was the chemo, which needed to be scaled back for my body, but some of it may have been the disease. At this point, I do not believe my struggles are related to the disease, as the tumors are turned off and are starting to die. At least that was the story about a month ago … and I’m sticking with it!!
I am hoping to feel good this weekend, so that Cathy and I can get out of the house together for awhile. Such outings, even if brief, are good for us and help us deal with the rest of the weekend, where we are more or less confined inside (or at least that is the way it feels). On the bright side, it helps that the weather is nicer … spending even a little time outside is a great way to break up the day.
Monday will be a long day at Piper. These chemo days seem to run from 7 AM to 4 PM. If I am feeling well enough, I will write a journal entry during that time. If you don’t hear from me, you’ll know that I just wasn’t up to writing.
I hope you all have a wonderful weekend. I want you to know that I feel your support and am lifted by it. Thanks for all you are doing for Cathy and me. Your support is critical.