I hope you all had a great weekend. The weather in Phoenix was lovely and is forecast to be even better as we work our way through the week (but, we all know that extended forecasts can be a bit off), with highs dropping from the current mid-90s to lower to mid-80s by the middle of the week. The lows are starting to dip into the 60s. Fall is in the air.
Unfortunately, we had to cancel our dinner plans Thursday night with Laura and our travel plans this weekend to San Diego. I just wasn’t feeling well enough for those outings. It was a major disappointment, but of course my wonderful family took it all in stride and so understood the need to cancel. Dan plans to come home this coming weekend, so that takes the sting out of the lost trip to San Diego. And Laura came out to our house late yesterday afternoon; that helped … it was great to see her! I am so lucky to have such a great family.
The intent of not having chemo last Monday was to give me a week of steroids and to give me the opportunity to gain some strength. It was a mixed week in the latter regard. I had some good days that really helped, although – as alluded to above – towards the end of the week I lost some steam. I kept eating, despite the lack of appetite, but not enough to keep my weight at a steady state; I lost a couple pounds this past week. Thank goodness for those pies that Cathy makes … who knows how much I might have lost without those? I guess I’ll have to eat more pie! Let him eat pie!
My pain level increased this past week, so I have gone back to taking oxycodone to help me through the day. It drops the pain from about a 6-7 (on a 10-point scale) to a 3-4; when it is down to a 3-4, I can manage the day pretty well. It is tough when it is higher than that. It is unfortunate that my symptoms are getting worse … this is quite a bump in our road … but we are here at Piper to receive chemotherapy treatment and start killing this cancer again. We’ve done it before and we’ll do it again! I’ll get back to where I was! And, believe me, there is no time like today to get started!
We are just waiting to see what our medical team at Piper wants to do and when we start chemo.
Big change in plans: I am not going to receive chemotherapy today. I am going to be admitted to the nearby hospital in order to try to get the pain management under control. My team here has a pain specialist they refer to, and this physician will oversee the next steps. One of the things they want to do is determine precisely how much pain medication I need. They can better do this when the medication is being delivered intravenously. Unfortunately, it isn’t going to tell us why I am having so much pain, but at least it will help me feel better. The team here doesn’t think my discomfort is so much related to my disease, given that my tumor marker isn’t that high, my tumors aren’t growing (according to the last scan), etc. I am one big mystery. They are certainly working hard to figure me out, but admittedly without a great deal of success quite yet. I trust they will get to the bottom of this all. It may just take a bit more time. I regret being so mysterious.
One option that we discussed is ultimately going back to the other chemo regimen, which was so successful for me. They are certainly open to doing that. I understand the rationale of switching chemotherapy agents, so the cancer doesn’t start to outsmart the medicine, but perhaps we can do this for awhile, just long enough to get me feeling better and knock the tumor back to being inactive. Of course, if my symptoms are unrelated to the disease, this may not help. Then again, if some of my discomfort is due to the new chemo regimen, then this would help. We’ll see. I feel comforted in knowing that they’ll do what they feel is best for me. I am very fortunate.
I am relying upon Team Bacon for strength; your love and support, your prayers, etc. are so important to me. Please know how much I appreciate you and what you are doing for me. Indeed, I’m reaching for strength wherever I can get it. Fortunately, I do not have to look far … Cathy is right there for me at each step of the way. Her emotional and physical support helps me through each day. I couldn’t do it without her.
I may or may not be able to post blogs while in the hospital. I should be there for only a day or two, but who knows? I’ll write as soon as I can.