Sid faced his final illness with grace, dignity, and style. During the 19 months that he fought the cancer, he kept a regular journal, describing his feelings, his activities, his consistent upbeat attitude, his devotion to his family and theirs to him, as well as all of the medical ups and downs he faced during "this journey." His journal (see http://www.caringbridge.org/visit/sidbacon) drew hundreds of followers, with more than 70,000 visits, and well over 10,000 entries of support in the guestbook. Sid never failed to end each of his postings with an expression of deep gratitude to all who were sending their words of encouragement, to the collective support group who came to be known as "Team Bacon."
Although one could see through his writings that Sid sometimes became a bit discouraged, this was the exception, and he never expressed any self pity or gloom. On the contrary, he wrote that he had learned during his illness to focus more on the pleasures of the moment, the value of family and friends. Many of the guest entries expressed their gratitude that Sid had provided so much inspiration and reminded us all of what is really important in life.
An illustration of the positive and selfless inspiration Sid provided is captured in an essay he wrote one day in the journal (only two of the stanzas are reprinted here):
Why me? …
When you are sick you have plenty of time to contemplate. This is especially true when you have cancer and are relegated to spending time at home, in doctors’offices, at chemo clinics, etc. At this point in my treatment, although I have plenty of good days, I’m not 100% and I can’t possibly work full-pace for the entire day. So, I have time to think. One of the things I think about is:
Why me?
Why did I get to marry my best friend … someone who has been my constant companion for over 30 years of married life? Why do I still get to benefit from her constant love and friendship? Why me? Why am I so lucky?
Why have our children grown up to be the people they have grown up to be … individuals who are kind, compassionate, loving, funny, giving? Why have we had and continue to have such a wonderful life with them, even when we live apart? Why am I so lucky? Why me?
Sid Bacon was a unique individual who has touched so many people in so many ways during his life, career, and struggle with cancer. He will be sorely missed by all. As one friend posted in the guestbook upon learning that Sid had died: "Oh, SP...how you lived, played, loved, mentored and died. You did it all so brilliantly. Rest now."