I think I definitely have turned a corner in terms of how I am feeling. I ate pretty well yesterday and didn’t get sick … well, the peanut butter/chocolate smoothie in the afternoon didn’t sit all that well with me, but it wasn’t anything that some of my anti-nausea medication couldn’t handle. I think I’ll stick with our more typical fruit smoothies from now on. Those seem to sit better with me.
I must say, it is great to feel well again. I may not be eating as much as I have in the past, but I’m working up to it. I lost a few pounds this past week, so I really need to focus on eating. Of course, it is much easier if I have at least somewhat of an appetite, as I do now. If I combine a reasonable amount of eating with my TPN, I should gain weight at a pretty good pace. Ultimately we need to drop the TPN from my “diet”. I am grateful for it, but I won’t miss it once I have moved on to getting sufficient calories orally. The sooner the better …
Cathy and I went on a nice walk in the desert this morning. Although we needed to be bundled, we both noted that it was warmer than it had been the past several days. I think our warming trend has started. It will be in the low 70s this weekend … it should be perfect for the Rock and Roll ½ marathon and marathon.
After months of challenges and speed bumps along our journey, I finally feel as though things are getting better. My pain is under control with a relatively low dose of fentanyl (pain patch); my appetite is slowly coming back; and I have a good amount of energy for my walks. At the end of this month, one of the surgeons at Mayo will completely internalize my tube that is used to help drain the bile … at least that is the plan. I hope the CT scan that will be performed a few days before the surgery will not counter-indicate that tube replacement. It will be nice not to have a short tube coming out of my side. And once we stop TPN, I will no longer need a tube dangling from my power port (the power port is how the TPN is delivered to me intravenously). With all these tubes, I feel as if I am part machine or, worse yet, a sick individual that needs lots of tubing to keep going. I know I am neither, but I will definitely be glad to not have the tubes anymore.
I am looking forward to starting chemo again, and resuming my fight against cancer. That should be in early February. I am optimistic that the chemo regimen will be successful. I’m not quite prepared to lose my hair again, but that is a trivial side effect given the importance of the chemo. At least I won’t need any shampoo for a while.
I feel fortunate that things are going as well as they are. There is so much I have to be grateful for, and I certainly do not take for granted these days that I am feeling well. I know that I am not lucky enough to feel good everyday, so I’ll relish the days that I do.
As always, thank you for your love and support. Cathy and I appreciate it immensely. It plays such an important role in our fight.